I'm not talking about my bank balance; I'm talking about attitude these days, or more specifically, my moods. I used to have no problem with my moods - except for during a day or two of the month (sorry male readers!). Recently, this is not the case.
I've been back at work about six months. Yesterday I was doing a job that months ago I decided was a good job that I enjoyed doing. My reasons for this were that it is out of the way of everyone and I can talk to my co-workers.
Yesterday these were exactly the reasons that put me in a mood. Out of the way of everyone? Because nobody likes the job so they don't want to be there. That's why you are usually alone when you do it. Chat to my co-workers? Not when they start conversations that as soon as I hear know straight away that I won't want to get involved in. Lets just say it would have led to a debate about wider issues that I don't discuss at work.
Yesterday was also the day that I bumped into someone who just wanted to argue with me. Seriously. Haven't seen someone in a decade? Start an argument with them. That's one way to make friends and alienate people.
See what I mean?
Of course, the problem with all of this is that I am stuck in a rut. (The other problem might also be that I'm talking to the wrong people?)
When my mood goes, so does my ability to track spending. And make payments. The last week or so I lost track of spending and missed a payment to the council who I still owe for their overpayment last year. I'm not even sure how much is still left to pay because I've been on such a downer I haven't had the energy to work it out. I'll be doing it today or tomorrow. I only realised I'd missed it because I was looking through paperwork, which wasn't organised... I will be making a payment today.
One of my former close friends got in touch recently. I say former close friend because we're not close friends anymore. More of an acquaintance, really, however at this point I think the term acquaintance is being generous. If you only know what someone is up to based on their facebook profile then you're really not friends. Anyway she got in touch literally the night before she wanted to visit. Also, she got in touch through facebook. She has my phone number. I've got no problem with people getting in touch that way if that's there only option, it's annoying if they've had your phone number for years and don't use it. Anyway, the visit never happened because I told her I wasn't free.
Ok that was a bit of a rant...
Tomorrow is payday, thankfully. Next pay will be a bit less because I went away an hour early yesterday. From tomorrow's pay I will be buying dh's first Christmas present. Payday weekend is always good because more money gets thrown at the emergency fund.
This entry is all over the place. If you made it this far reward yourself with some chocolate or ice cream. You deserve it.
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And I would say it is probably VERY normal to ignore finances if you are not feeling well whether physically or emotionally. Being tuned in and knowing that is how you feel is the first step to getting back on track.
October 15th, 2015 at 01:20 pm 1444915220
Oh boy, can I relate. Just when I'm feeling on an upswing ... my daughter's classmate died. (She had a chronic illness, but the death was sudden - so sudden that she had been at school the day before). My brother's transition to family life is being difficult (I had to tell him: "Hello, we are kids of divorce, too. Remember that it wasn't easy becoming a blended family.") My best friend and I "broke up" a few weeks ago, but she was dumped by her boyfriend and we reunited. Now she's been diagnosed with a heart condition and wanted to talk about her will and estate planning last night. I think key to the emotional health is keeping yourself physically health: eating right and getting rest. I, too, feel that money management isn't nearly important and I usually think it is. So, don't feel alone. Know that we're all rather limping along and struggling right now. (hugs)
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